im beginning to have feelings for you..
What miss syahirah said is true..
i want to love and be loved again.. :)

seeing him making an effort to dress up into something formal for our dinner really touched my heart. something that i dont expect from him even as a friend.i felt relax,happy and just go with the flow without stressing myself to keep thinking what's next for us which i usually did last time.

making that serious decision really made me cry so bad. it's like as if im left with no choice. however today,im relieve and feel so light. as if i just woke up from a bad and draggy nightmare.
but i never regret it end this way because i did love you and tried my very best to be with you.

slowly,im beginning to stop holding on to your promises.

Sometimes girls are weird and hard to understand.
Like me.
Sometimes i dont know what i want.

There were times when i just want to sit and stare into your eyes..
Looking deep into your soul..
Trying to read your mind..
To know you better..

But sometimes i just want you to know me better...

how i wish things were different...

White
A graceful swan
Ducks swimming in the pond
Surrender,purity,innocence
A ballerina who twirls and turns
White clouds swirling by
Up,up,away in the sky...
The feel of white snow
That lies underneath below
The touch of an angel
That changed my world
Shines a light to my soul
Vanilla ice cream
Pure and full of lust
Honesty and trust
Resembles the beauty of someone's heart
Peace and justice
A white flag flying in the air
Cracks in the wall,
A door to my freedom...
White.