Friday, February 15, 2008
Its not bout taking sides
when I looked in the mirror,
it didn't deliver, it hurt enough to think that I could stop
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I got to be strong and leave you behind
-Jordin Sparks,Tattoo...
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i hate physical abuse..
but sometimes i think it's better than emotional abuse...
physical abuse..u feel the pain...u cry and cry..and u shout to stop one day when u cant take it anymore...
u flight or fight..
emotional abuse...u feel hurt..u cry and cry...u keep it to yourself because u think others will never understand u...
u've try to stop it...but u always blame yourself for being in situations that u cant speak up for yourself....after u had enough,u tend to think of abusing yourself physically because u want take away the real pain...
be it cutting wrist,smoking,drinking or anything...
n after that,u feel 'numb'...it's like as if u are a sponge and u absorb all emotional hurt because u know u cant do anything...u keep everything..
when some people were concern about u,u juz say 'it's ok..everything is fine...'
u dont have the courage to confront those people who have hurt u....and always blame yourself wrong....
how are u going to speak up?....finally....
the pain will always be there....
is walk away the best answer?
