so,left me and sis at home while the rest went to 'majlis perkahwinan'...
and i con'd with my part for mental illness project while sis was watching tv...
somtimes projects can be so difficult...
ok..not somtimes..but all the time....

and yat asked for suggestions to buy for a friend..hahaha
so,since the budget is almost the same as saleha ...
and i suggest the same things....
:)

and that's when it started to get dark and rain...
had to stop everyhing and sis wanted me to be by her side all the time as she's afraid of thunder..hahah
she's so cute...
i really love her ALOT!
i mean yes as she's the only sibling i have...
without her,haiz..life will not be interesting and fun eventhough we always fight and shout all the time all the time..
being with her is like i know where i belong...
and one of the people whom i know she'll always love me eventhough no matter how many bitch attitude ive shown her..
and the only person who knows im not ok without telling her eventhough i keep telling her that everything's alright...

well,that's my lil sis...

and yest,i spend most of the afternoon sleeping..haha..
and at night,we had tahlil for arwah nenek...
i miss her..
but like i said,life has to go on...
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i keep thinking and thinking about alot of stuffs....
one prob to another....
everything...
i keep searching for answers that i want to know...
answers to know where i stand....
and i need to make decisions for some of them...
while others,i want to run away and hide...
in my room ..staring blankly at the wall..as if it can give the answer...
most of the time,i just focus on my work..and pretend that everything is alright...
had go through everyday..
day and night..

and finally,i realise i cant pretend anymore...
laughing out loud to keep myself happy?..
when im nt...
i cant pretend that everything is alright when things are not...
because i keep thinkng about it...

happiness..that's all i ask for...