i am seriously tired.....
and i've been sleeping alot eversince nenek passed away....
and i know it's not a good sign....

i cant keep continue crying....
she wont come back even my eyes filled with blood tears....
i have no choice but to be strong to accept the fate....
no use crying because she'll always be in our mind and heart...
and life...has to go on....

i've only have 1 regret...
i never tell her how much i love her....
however,i always show my love by kissing her cheek....
and i had my last when i saw her lying there in the bed...
eyes closed and stiff...
tears filled up my eyes eventhough i've been trying hard to control my emotions...
my lips felt cold when i kissed her unlike the warmth i always felt whenever i met her...

i'll always love you,nenek....

girlfriends were there when i really need them the most....
i love you girls and thank you so much.....

and the work really make me focus to do my best for the patients' health
and not to think about the sadness...

like i said,life has to go on....