hey~im back again..haiz~nowadaes my life is juz full of stress..haiz~urgh~..abt everytin..abt skool,np n life..somtymes i wonder y cant i decide wat i wanna be..haiz~y r ppl decidin wat i shud do??..

abt np..haiz~..get staff sergeant rank 2dae..me hapi??..ya..quite coz im not interested wif de rank..anywae im not committed wif np anymore..haiz~..dey take moz of my time..haiz~..juz now,we had parade..b4 dat,we had GOH trainin...urgh~penat sey..everydae we had trainin sey..urgh~...haiz~..moz of de time i really feel dat i wanna quit..i don care wheder it's GOH or np..i feel dat dey r a burden in my life..i juz wanna live peacefully sey..haiz~..freaklar..somtymes i juz wish dat im in de art club..coz dat's wat im interested in..haiz~..juz now,in de morn,i feel dat i wanna break down..i manage to cry abit coz i quickly wipe my tears b4 ppl realise it..haiz~im really fedup wif everytin sey..haiz~

abt skool..since dey introduced de hm rm system..i feel more ok..i mean i don feel quite tired..but den,dey lyk to giv laz min announcement..haiz~hope dey can improve to make our skool better..haiz~..but den,i juz don noe wen i wan to revise coz tiz wk..i hav 3 tests..physics,ss n amaths..haiz~i really wanna pass my amaths sey..i really hope i can do it..ss..haiz~how i wish dat it's source based but den,it's not..it's essay..haiz~

abt family..haiz~im so stress..im really under-pressure..i tot dat after all de stress i had in skool..i can relax at home..but den,im not...my mom alwaes pressure to choose police force as my career..she alwaes tryin to kritik abt my passion sey..haiz~she alwaes tryin to influence me..fedup sey..y?y?..it's my life wad..y ppl hav to decide wat i hav to do ??..klar..i noe she's tryin her bez for me..i noe it's for my future..but den,seriozly tinkin,i really don wan to regret in future..if i don do wat i wanna do in future,maeb i'll regret it later..haiz~..tkpelar..i noe dat she wans me to be hapi in future..but den..haiz~

klar..dat's all..i hope i'll be ok in tiz few daes..haiz~