hey~im back...haiz~wat a freak life i hav 2dae...haiz~guys,im really sori...im really...really sori very much..i noe dat u guys r angry 2wards me...pls..pls forgiv me...wat i feel is dat u guys r angry wif me bcoz u guys tink dat i keep secret frm u guys kn...im really sori..haiz~plz forgiv me...

haiz~wat a bad luck dae~i juz realised 2dae dat i've been fooled again...haiz~y muz my life b so miserable...bcoz of dat,i break down juz now durin e waitin of e medical check-up...haiz~i noe wat's deir intention of askin me 2 go 2 e library wif em...i mean asl??y muz i lie myself wen e truth is in front of me??haiz~i juz feel dat im lyk a barrier btwn e gal n e guy...haiz~wat a freak life i hav...it made me really sad wen i juz realised somtin 2dae...now,im really confused..i juz don noe wat to do...does she hav a mean intention 2wards me???...i juz don noelar...tiz really make me really hurt...haiz~is tiz wat dey actually call ' life'???yeah~i noe dat life hav 2 go on..but den,i juz don noe how 2 face her 2morrow..y m i so stupid???m i blind or wat?? dat i cant see e truth???but 1 ting dat i really hate is dat y muz she lie to me??freaklar...e truth was really in front of me but y muz i act as if i noe notin??haiz~now,i hav to stop all tiz nonsense...som ppl r not worth it 2 b my fren bcoz dey always make me really confused..haiz~i juz don noelar..freaklar...

well...i juz hope 2morrow gonna b a gd dae 4 me...yeah~i hope...well..i tink dat's all...

hey~im back..well..me now at yana's hse temankn e geo student doin deir project..haiz~wat a sad life i hav now..e prob is dat i cant stop tinkin of him..i juz don noe y..freaklar...bcoz of dat,i did stupid tings juz to forget him..haiz~

yeah~i noe dat i hav change...frm a gd gal to a bad gal..but den,tiz is not i wanna b at e 1st place..e situation hav made me change...i noe dat i hav change...but 2dae,i hav made up my mind...after 1 wk..after i hav been tinkin abt it..i hav made up my mind...i wan to change back..wanna b myself again...i hav to change due to my health as it has gettin worse...ya..be myself again..


wat i really wish is dat i hope he can find som1 dat can understand him..i mean a gd n kind gal..coz now i noe y..bcoz im not gd enouf 4 him...urgh~don wanna tink abt it anymore...well..dat's gd 4 me...

now..i juz wanna stop everytin wat i've been doin laz wk..ya..hope i can b ok...all i wan is dat som1 to bring back my happiness...hehehez...