hey~im back..haiz~ma comp ade virus..now,im at syasya's houz..doin som gal stuff...haiz~wat a sad dae..ya..to tell e truth..im really sad abt 2dae..i mean all gals gonna feel wat i feel rite now kn..if tiz happen to em..haiz~it's nature lar..haiz~but it's not juz dat im sad abt..der's other ting oso..wat i wish not to happen..it happens..haiz~hist repeat itself again..haiz~same old story..juz exactly e same lyk e drama-mama..but i understand..i juz cant force luv..i regret it..i shud actually follow kak sara n chia poh's advice at e 1st place..haiz~kak sara..im sori..chia poh..im sori..i wanna cry..really wanna cry..dat's e only wae i can let it out..haiz~i understand e sign..it's not a gd sign..if it's a gd sign,y muz i hav e gut feelin dat it's goin be bad..bcoz 2dae,it confirm dat it is a bad sign..haiz~i juz don wanna stress..lyk..nowadaes...i mean ard laz wk..im really stress bcoz of som stuff...haiz~bcoz of dat,i 've done stupid ting..ya..i regret it now..but den,after dat im ok oreadi..but now,i juz don noe..haiz~wat i feel rite now..is dat im livin in a world of notin..juz sadness n loneliness..haiz~but i juz don wan to tink abt it...i juz hav to find a wae to get over u..i juz don wanna stress maself again..i juz don wan to do dat stupid stuff again..haiz~thx to ma frens..i really fortunate n hapi dat they r der to help me..they understand me..thx guys..without u guys , i juz don noe wat to do..thx veri much..rite now,wen im cryin or not,they r tryin deir bez to cheer me up..they make alot of funi,lame n stupid jokes..hehehez..they r giler..dat's wat i lyk abt em..ada,stop itlar...ya..i noe dat..im ok..bcoz i understand...i understand everitin..it's ma fault..all tiz ting happen bcoz of me..it's ma fault..haiz~well,i juz hope dat i'll be ok..

to dat guy,thx veri much..im sincere abt it..u r a veri nice guy..n e special ting abt u is dat u r a listener..i fall for u bcoz of dat..i hope u still wan to be ma fren..i juz wan to ask u somtin...juz pretend dat notin has happen..plz..i beg u..juz tink dat u n me r frens..notin more..

haiz~im back..urgh~borin..wanna go out..urgh~haiz~now,im at home..doin notin..haiz~no choice but hav to start ma hmwk..haiz~no fair..moz of ma frens r havin fun lyk rau hu's havin som class chalet while sya went to kl..haiz~maeb i shud organise som reunion.hmm..how abt obs reunion??hmm..dat wud be great..but den,dorg mls..haiz~apelar dorg ni..urgh~well,dat freak guy keeps botherin me by callin me..n keep askin me wen i wan to watch e movie..lyk laz time,i sae no wen he ask me out..luckily i hav som excuses..haiz~yest,he called me again..twice..urgh~freaklar..haiz~i juz don noelar..i don wanna giv him hopes lyk as if i lyk him wen actually in ma heart is only e 'guy' i lyk..hehehez..haiz~i juz don noe whether ma feelins for 'him' hav grown stronger or not..but wat i realise is dat i've started to miz 'him'..haiz~ada,juz relax...k..juz let e time tell..u juz relax..haiz~nowadaes,i cant sleep properly..haiz~i juz don noe y..haiz~lyk somtin is botherin me..haiz~i juz hope dat i'll be ok..n i can sleep better..well,i tink i juz stop here..

hmm...juz came back frm johor yest..okoklar...wen der wif ma ther couz...visit ma aunt hu lives der..den,after lunch,we went jln raye ...visit other aunties-uncles..get duit collection....at nite,went to pasar mlm...muz be xtra careful wif ma bag..coz u noelar...we can nvr noe dat som1 might juz snatch ur bag..buy ma fav food..kaya balls..buy som other stuff lyk eyeliner n cologne..urgh~i've lost ma eyeliner while puttin back ma stuff after we reach at ma aunt's hse..we oso bought som food lyk satay n keropok lekor..dat's oso ma fav food too..den,e nxt dae,on e wae back ,we went shoppin at giant..giant??y giant of all e shoppin centres at der??in s'pore kn ade giant jugak...luckily ma mom didnt bought many stuff..we only bought som hand n body lotion n other food stuff..den,wen reach s'pore,went strait to ma couz's hse..well,die ade open hse..go der n attack e food..hehehez..watch som movies while e others went for karaoke at one of e rms...hehehehz...kelakar sey..i didnt join coz im quite tired n oso im bloated..after eatin alot of food..to tell e truth,im eatin non-stop since hari raye...n i've gain alot of weight...haiz~didnt went to rau's bro's weddin...haiz~miz e fun..well,i tink dat's all..

hey~long time sey me nvr update ..haiz~ma comp lar..kene virus...well,ma life nowadaes okoklar..notin special or gd has happen..except dat i went for hari raye thingy wif ma frens..bdk bv..hehehez..funlar..esp the 2nd bv outin..hehehez..tk rush..den,lazly,we lepak kat mc jap..den,go homelar n sleep..bcoz im really tired ..on e dae b4,i did not hav enough sleep..bkn nyer me sengaje sey..lyk nowadaes me susah nk tidolar..enth..tk tau kenape..lyk somtin is botherin me..but i don noe wat it is..haiz~me force maself to sleep by drinkin milo n telan panadol..baru me leh sleep..but i juz don wanna get addicted..
to tell the truth,im really hapi on dat dae coz the guy i lyk is der ...hehehez...
well,i tink i've started to lyk tiz guy but i juz wanna keep quiet...he's nice..n a listener too..dat's wat i lyk abt him..well,i tink i'll juz keep it in ma heart..coz me sedar diri..lyk im not the pretty one or the great one..im juz an ordinary gal..im not perfect..n i juz don wanna hav hopes..i don wanna daedream...coz i've learnt ma lesson..i juz don wan hist to repeat itself..juz let the time to tell the ans...hmm...well,tadi me gi np..mls sey..very tirin esp the pt..urgh~lagi2 bile singalong session..freak ar..the sec 1 eh..betul2 buat me bingit..takleh cooperate ..urgh~yg tk dtg pun buat me bingit..dorg relek je tk dtg..dorg ingat me pun nk dtg np pe...mepek ar..den,bile lek..me n the rest gi mkn kat simei..kenyang giler...haiz~talkin abt food..me nowadaes non-stop eatin sey..urgh~me tk nk jadi gemuk..but den, i tink i've become fatter coz ma weight naik..urgh~the bez thing is dat i hav diet n lose weight b4 skool reopens..well,i tink dat's all..