Thursday, October 28, 2004
hmm..sumtins realli2 make me confused
hi..im back..ok..hmm..wanna talk abt wat ar?oklar..let's start on mon 251004
on dat dae,go to skool as usual..then, wen to art rm to listen to sum talk..haiz~at dat time, daedreamin oreadi wen e person talk abt wat she get lyk a haircut for $70..modellin?not realli ma type..coz i noe hu m i..not qualified for it..tinkin dat ma frens hav high chance for it..but not for me..me wanna be a fashion designer..but urgh~muz realli work hard..then,wen to ira's hse..watch tiz crap malay movie but oklar..funi..mepek je..honestly, in life, me cant stand these type of ppl..esp wen they melatah..urgh~after dat , wen to s'pore post for e art thingy..oklar..didnt grab e opportunity to help at e backstage..then wen to tkc..enthlar..dorg wanna cari baju..me juz look ard..juz wanna temankn dorg..then, sumtin happen..we get separated..told rau to call em..dorg kat bazaar..wow~dat's so 'great'..1 grup at tkc..another grup at bazzar..decided to find em at bazaar..cari n cari..but still cant find em..realli sey..b4 finally decide to go home..as we oreadi giv up..at home, quite bingit..haiz~then, chat kat msn while waitin 4 buke..haiz~juz don noe wat to do..hurtin sum1's heart bie tellin him e truth..sori..i've tried ma bez..but then me don wanna giv u false info..hope u r ok..well, wat eva happens..life hav to go on..
on tues 261004, went to skool wif no mood..still sleepy n tired..realli hav no mood.haiz~juz don noe wat to sae..in skool, ade groomin course..eee..see e thigh of e watermelon..eee..xtra large..sya, mas, ira decided not to go for obs..me wanna go coz dah kene influenced frm ma couz as he went oreadi..me decided on sun after chattin wif sya kat msn..at home, tried to tink back.asl me bingit?hmm..but after tinkin abt it..i tink we've go on wif our life..i mean tkkn me nk mrhkn dorg slamenyer juz bcoz of 1 incident..im mean we r frens kn?ppl do mistake at times..i oso do mistakes..we r frens n frens forgiv each other kn?im sori if i've done rong to u guys..maeb i didnt realised it..
well, wanna sae dat i don double-cross ma frens..i don betray em too..i keep all e secret we've shared..i don tell others..i understand dat sum of ma frens r attention seeker..even i sumtimes cant stand her..but i lyk tiz gal hu i've shared some opinions wif her..trust her among others..but if we split,haiz~juz don noe wat to sae..but i hope tiz wont laz long..but all e time i juz keep ma mouth shut coz i noe diff ppl hav diif opinions or probs..i understand dat in grup like tiz, we tend to like sum of our frens more than e others..bcoz maeb dorg more understandin..i don side anione...bcoz i noe dat we r frens..i don betrae ma frens..it's juz dat im confused.sumtimes..oklar..hmm..chat kat msn wif e gui i miz alot..haiz~we chat as if we baru kenal..but nvr mindlar..freak..cant stop tinkin of him..haiz~
271004 wed..wen dressin up for skool, me decided to do sumtin..dat is to talk to ma frens..im not angri wif em animore..coz if i tink back properli,it's useless..like notin can be done animore..lagipun kiter kn kwn..tkkn nk dendam..wen me n fiq look for mrfoo, i ask him abt his gal..hmm..thx to him..now i noe wat dorg tink..wat fiq sae is true..we need to communicate wif each other..like we need to talk so dat there wud not be ani misunderstandin..don dendam2 lar..if not hapi, juz tell e person face to facelar..i mean we r frens..tkkn tk leh terima teguran frm own frens..?then, after maths,me talk to sha n mas..sort tings out..like now i realised dat i shud hav ma own pendirian hidup..i juz cant giv in animore..like im not a dog to follow it's owner..hmm, then,wen a-maths period, mrgoh tkde..hehehez..he forgot dat he has lesson wif us..nvr mind i understand..kn dah tua..hehehz..so, me n sha talk abt tiz thing ar..sort things out..explain to her..thx sha..for givin me a chance to talk abt tiz..so tiz means me n her dah ok..sori for misjudgin u..thx god..then, went to ira's hse..talk to her..tried to pujuk her not to get out of e grup..hope she'll tink abt it ..we realli2 need her..without her, no fun se..haiz~then, watch iron ladies..moz of ma frens sleep..onli me n ira watch e movie..went home wif sha ..take bus no. 38..
tinkin abt tiz has make me realised..eventhoughwe r not hapi wif ani of our frens, we shud talk abt it..so dat there wont be ani fites or misunderstandin..n oso dendam..i mean tkkn kwn sendiri pun nk dendam..sumtimes how angriwe r, we juz hav to sabar..ok..like on mon..me admit at dat time, me realli bingit bcoz of dat incident..but wen i tink back over n over again, it's useless coz to me, wat's past is past..it's no use for me to be angri at em..
281004 thurs..i mean 2dae..oklar..everitin's ok..sha wen for ine..then, after skool..there's tiz gal came to me n ask for ma no..for dat sec 2 gui..didnt giv to her coz i tink if he's sincere to be ma fren, he shud juz come to me n talk to me..no need to exchange no..mepek se..i tink he's not dat matured..but nvr mindlar..at least ade kwn baru..hehehez..
oklar..dat's all i wan sae..hope u guis forgiv me if i've done ani mistake n understand abt tiz matter..as u noe we r teenagers..hav to be matured..not childish..we shud not seek ani attention for our own needs..dat's so immature n selfish..e bez thing is dat talk to e person u r not hapi wif n solved e probs 2gether..not tellin everi person u met abt tiz..i noelar how u feel..but if u wanna tell tiz to outsiders, make sure dorg can be trusted..i noe dat nobodi's perfect..but juz keep it to ourselves..n solved tiz prob within our grup..oklar..dat's all i wanna sae..thx guis..for givin me a chance to talk abt tiz matter..hope tiz wont laz long..n everitin gonna be ok..
